Again and again

I've been to heaven
I've taken long journeys in hell
Sat in darkness with my eyes closed
Until they came to wake me up
I've built myself up and torn myself down again
I walked through hell again
I've cried I've died
Dismissing the thought of breathing again
But I woke up again
They came to pick me up
To show me the light again
To guide me again
Then for a moment I could see it
Perfect clarity graced me
Tempting me to hope again
But it is still winter
Spring is forgotten in the ice crystals
And I am walking in hell again
Some warm breeze tickles my mind
And I can see the green again
The green I can find
The change in my mind
The season of change is in range
The cold still bites at my soul
But the warmth
The promise kisses the hope of change
Kissing me again and again