Showing posts with label pain. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pain. Show all posts

Thursday, January 30, 2020

Broken

You eventually came around to me
I became your eventuality 
After the pain
After the brokenness that couldn't be fixed
After decisions have been made that will scar all those who tried to get close to me
Then is when you started to see me
When it was to late
When early on you choose your fate
Breathing darkness into me
Trying to weaken me
To break me
Until I was on the floor 
Underneath the earth before my birth
Until I was suffocating from the pain
Trying to scrub away your stain
When all I could do is pray 
Going through self doubt 
Wondering how I could ever possibly heal from such brokenness
How will I ever even find the pieces 
When they're so shattered how can I even begin to put them together
Or find them 
How can I even find those pieces of myself
Everything ceases and falls into itself 
Ah the pain the pain 
Living in hell made by someone else 
Created from darkness 
Trying to extinguish the light 
He tried to extinguish my light 
Take all that I am made of destroy all that I'm made of
So I can feel dead like him empty 
Empty simply empty 

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

Patience

My waters are usually flat, serene, unmovable
They keep dumping their pollution
They create tsunamis, tempest, whirlpools
Instability
Then my own sadness
The touch of pleasure
The touch of freedom
The box is getting smaller
Or I'm getting bigger
Expanding
Craving transcendence
My heart is suffocating
It is exploding or imploding
It is a chaotic space
A space of creation
A space of destruction
It is a hell trying to transform into heaven
It is the burning and the dissolution
You can see its wings
The gold the red
The ashes the smoke
The pain the pleasure
The tears the stabs
The center bleeds
It bleeds then expands
It bleeds and heals
It searches, searches, searches
Found
It waits, waits, waits