On my travels I've had many ups and downs, times of the deepest sadness and times of pure joy. The one being I've missed the most is my cat Bella. When living in Florida when I was going through bad times, she would always be there to comfort me and I miss that so much.
You see me and Bella have been together for many lifetimes, she's been my cat companion for a very long time and I always think of her and I love her deeply, we are connected through love.
My recent travel was very difficult, I was deeply saddened by the circumstances and so I decided to visit a park nearby my hotel. Soon I realized that this park is literally full of cats! You can imagine my excitement! As I was walking along petting as many cats that would allow me to I came upon her, a cat that looked exactly like my Bella.
You see Bella is a Norwegian forest cat, with long black fur with some brown undertones. A very rare and antique breed. This cat looked exactly, exactly like her! So I bent down and said "hi Bella can I pet you? Bella can I pet you?" She immediately started purring and came over to me and rubbing her body against me. Then she put her front paws on my lap, I took this as a signal that I was allowed to pick her up, so I did and we walked over to a nearby bench. She stayed with me the entire time I was there, just laying with me, she even let me kiss her nose the way I used to kiss Bella, just giving me her love.
I am so grateful for her love! I needed it so badly! I know Bella was channelled there, I know it was her! She knew that I needed her!
I just wanted to share the deep connection we have with our animal friends, and they are there when we need them no matter where we are. And also how grateful I am for this connection and the deep connection with the universe.
I've been to heaven
I've taken long journeys in hell
Sat in darkness with my eyes closed
Until they came to wake me up
I've built myself up and torn myself down again
I walked through hell again
I've cried I've died
Dismissing the thought of breathing again
But I woke up again
They came to pick me up
To show me the light again
To guide me again
Then for a moment I could see it
Perfect clarity graced me
Tempting me to hope again
But it is still winter
Spring is forgotten in the ice crystals
And I am walking in hell again
Some warm breeze tickles my mind
And I can see the green again
The green I can find
The change in my mind
The season of change is in range
The cold still bites at my soul
But the warmth
The promise kisses the hope of change
Kissing me again and again
My waters are usually flat, serene, unmovable
They keep dumping their pollution
They create tsunamis, tempest, whirlpools
Instability
Then my own sadness
The touch of pleasure
The touch of freedom
The box is getting smaller
Or I'm getting bigger
Expanding
Craving transcendence
My heart is suffocating
It is exploding or imploding
It is a chaotic space
A space of creation
A space of destruction
It is a hell trying to transform into heaven
It is the burning and the dissolution
You can see its wings
The gold the red
The ashes the smoke
The pain the pleasure
The tears the stabs
The center bleeds
It bleeds then expands
It bleeds and heals
It searches, searches, searches
Found
It waits, waits, waits
There was a family
A father, mother, two sons and a daughter.
This family loved animals and decided to adopt a dog.
The oldest brother immediately took the dog and started aggressively training him. Through this aggression the dog complied and obeyed his new master. In response the older brother would hold his head high and show off to family and friends his accomplishments. When they gave him the attention he desired, he would then ignore and treat the dog badly.
His sister, who was the middle child of her brothers, felt very sad about the mistreatment of the animal, she loved the dog very much. So when her brother grew tired and abandoned the dog she immediately took over and would play with him and let him have free will doing what he pleased. The dog was very happy and loved her very much as well. He would always come when she called and when he heard her voice would jump with excitement. The dog loved her trusted her and always obeyed her.
One day her older brother saw how much the dog loved her and how he always obeyed her without even a treat. The dog would wag his tail and follow her around. But from him the dog would always run and hide. So he became jealous and angry with his sister. So one day when his sister and the dog were playing in a distance field and their father wasn't looking he took the dog from his sister, telling her that "it" had to follow rules. When she protested he hit her so hard she fell back inside a deep ditch unconscious and unable to climb out.
That evening when the sun started to set and the daughter hadn't returned, the father grew nervous, and begin to worry. He asked his son who was holding the dog on a chain where his sister was. He just shrugged his shoulders and continued what he was doing without even looking up. Immediately, the father knew that he had done something terrible so he went looking for his daughter everywhere.
Finally, the next morning he found her in the ditch. She was awake but couldn't climb out. Her father lifted her out into his arms and asked her who did this terrible thing to her. Her face was completely bruised and the back of her head had been bleeding. She replied that her brother was angry about the dog and became violent.
Her father became hot with anger. So when they returned and he gave his daughter to her mother, he called his son.
"Why have you done this to your sister? You are to protect her from other people doing this and you yourself have done this terrible thing! Now you shall pay with your inheritance and you will leave at once! I don't want to see your face again."
The son pleaded with his father but it was to late what done was done. His father wanted to make an example of him.
In the meantime while the daughter was healing the younger son decided to take care of the dog. But he wanted to do everything properly, so he bought the biggest most expensive book he could find on taking care of dogs and followed it rule by rule, never deviating. He was proud of himself and wanted to impress his father. However, the dog still preferred to stay with his sister and would run when he called him.
Soon his sister was better, she and the dog played joyfully as before, no treats, no rulebook. The dog did whatever it wanted but would always obey her.
One day, the younger brother, sister and their father were all outside enjoying the weather. Of course, the sister was playing with the dog. Her brother felt that this was a perfect opportunity to impress his father with what he trained the dog to do. So he tried calling the dog, but it would not come. Then he walked up to him and gave him a command. But the dog ignored him and kept playing with the sister.
Finally, the brother became angry and took the dog aggressively from his sister, yelling and demeaning his sister right in front of their father. However, he refrained from hitting her, he didn't want the punishment his brother received.
When the father saw what his son was doing to his sister, he became hot with anger. He couldn't tolerate anyone abusing his daughter in any way. So he took the dog from his son and returned it to his daughter.
Seeing what her father was about to do, she stopped him. "Father, she said, please forgive him, he doesn't yet understand. Please don't send him away." For she loved both her brothers, and she knew that they didn't understand how to love. "Father, he can learn, please be patient."
In that moment the father saw that his daughter understood true love, not only with the dog who loved her back but with her brothers who did not.
So he gave her the dog to care for along with the inheritance of the two sons. This gave her dominion over the family and both brothers would have to answer always to her. For he knew that she would always be loving and fair.
Father = Heavenly Father
Older brother = those who disrespect God and those around them
Younger Brother = those who only follow the rules of love but are disconnected from it
Daughter = Jesus and the Divine Feminine
Dog = can be any of us
Love is all that matters. You can't find it in a book. You can't receive it from doing evil things.
